Sunday November 4 update

Well today I tried to sleep in again, but my neighbors constantly barking dog decided he would have none of that. So much for extra sleep. Got up and took Ernie out. Gave him the anti nausea. And then took out Charlotte. Then gave Ernie his pred. It was gorgeous out. I am truly loving this cooler weather. So. Much. I am grateful that we are experiencing this while the weather is cool. It would be so much more of a total drag if it was a convection oven outside. We get to have the door and windows open and its over all delightful! No food interest this morning. But that is somewhat normal these days. Its not as big of a concern as it used to be. After awhile I made eggs and toast. He was very interested but lost interest after a few bites. Today I invited a bunch of people to my Facebook page. And it was a giant dose of reality. I am really glad its out there for my friends, and people who know Ernie but for some reason it brought up so much emotion and I pretty much cried all day. I received a lot of great messages from friends which only brought more tears - but really it was all a wonderful thing. Today was the first time i have really let myself cry. I mean I have cried many times since this has occurred, but it was usually just for a few moments in my office at work or in my car driving. I have a rule to not be over emotional in front of Ernie because he totally picks up on it. And he has no idea why I am upset - or if perhaps he has done something to upset me. But today he was tired, and slept a lot. It was an opportunity to release some of the pain that has been building. The past month and a half has been a roller coaster of sorts and todays release was well... a release. Throughout the day he ate and slept. He was picky, but I did manage to coax him into eating a bunch of different stuff. Fish sticks w/o most of the breading and blue buffalo kibble on and off throughout the day. Oh and some cheese. He is doing okay tonight. His gums are still pale. boo. But we went to get more water (because he drinks at least a gallon a day due to the prednisone) and he grabbed his ball and got in the car. Tonight he even stood up in the back at one point and put his head out the window. Win! He seems to have more energy in the evening and a better appetite too. He ate more kibble plain, some cheese and a bunch of Honest Kitchen treats. Win! He is on the floor chewing his tennis ball.. which has now lost the squeak. But he seems quite content. From looking at him from the outside you wouldn't know that he is suffering from anemia. Overall the day was good - despite the emotional outpouring it really was a good day now that i look back on it. Win :-)